First Raya

My first 'hari raya' did not turn up well. Tokbak has left us. It is full of tear and sadness. But we faced the fact that ' segala benda yang hidup, pasti akan mati' & 'dari tanah kita dijadikan, kepada tanah juga kita akan kembali'. It's just we dont know the time & when we are going to die.

If you ol' having ketupat, rendang, lontong, soto etc (yummies food) during hari raya., I end up with only a glass of hot milo (2 in1) and a 1 macam kuih raya. Even abah brought rendang ayam and lemang from N9 (thanks to wan mon..ingat gak kat kami!), but my appetite is totally gone...even rendang n9 memang sedap gile!! Akibat semua tak ada appetite, kami sedekahkan lemang & rendang (plus duit raya skali!)tadi ke pekerja-pekerja hotel yang tak balik raya. Punyelah suka depa!

a glass of milo and kuih raye on
my first hari raya

Sebelum ke rumah Aunty (for solat jenazah & bacaan yasin), kami sempatlah bersalam-salaman kat 'lobi hotel'. First time dalam sejarah family, kitorang bermaafan di lobi hotel dan second time, kitorang beraya di hotel (first time di Mekah). Ingatkan kami sekeluarga jer yang buat cam tuh. Rupanya ada lagi family yang cam tuh jugak (antara yang aku kenal, family CEO Maybank.Kebetulan! Diorang pun stay kat hotel yang sama sebelum beraya kat umah sedara).

Sesi bermaafan between me and mommy

As for baju raya, suppose amin, papa & me wearing punjabi clothe & kurta (bismi takda saiz. Jadi mama belikan gaun comel jerk). But 'things' happen, so we are not well prepared for 'baju melayu' or should i say 'baju raya'. Hangkut baju yang mana sempat jerk time emergency. But we're going to have formal picture in our punjabi clothe soon. Nanti I upload ya yang!

Muka ala-ala kadar kami sekeluarga di pagi raya
From left: fadly, bismi, bibik, me, mommy, abah, papa, amin & abg Shahrul
My mum yang paling emotional & sad that morning :(
and me trying to be happy as I could to cheer others..

After finish with the funeral, we decided to have a rest at the hotel since we did not have enough sleep especially mommy. She stayed all night and took care of tokbak at hospital before he passed away.

At night, we're have tahlil at Aunt's house. Many friends & relatives were there..and some of them,turn up to be sooo different. (yelah, mana tak nye..lame gile tak jumpa diorang). Dulu kecik-kecik, skang dah besar panjang...jadi makin lawa, makin hensem...ada yang dah keje, yang habis belajar..dan macam-macam la. Rasa macam 'jejak kasih' plak. Yet, aku suka dengan 'family reunion' nih even ada gak family aku yang aku sendiri tak kenal. Indirectly, ia membuatkan aku kenal lebih rapat lagi family belah mommy which aku memang jarang gile jumpa diorang unless kalo ada function-function family yang penting.

As a whole, me & mommy especially trying our best to control our emotion & trying to be happy back to normal. Even kekadang my mum suddenly cakap 'adik, mommy skang dah jadi yatim piatu.Takda mak dan takda ayah nak mengadu.' (which make me sedih gile nak dengar). But mommy, you have abah, me, menantu and cucu-cucu. We gonna make you always happy.:D I love you mommy & abah!!